busy bee day!

headache *less sleeping. problem.

i need to update. before i forget or totally lazy to keep posted.

yesterday, was a "i'm not sure it was a busy day or not but i'm physically tired". Without any sleep (was on the phone with my bestfriend, Wawa who's in London - a great and bonding conversation), as early at 8am, Ein and I drove off from my place in Puchong to Ein's hse in Wangsa Maju which takes approximately 45min. And after having Nasi Goreng for breakfast at Ein's house and talked to an orphanage kid (long story. in short, Ein's mom entered the orphanage program. or something similar to that. the boy is adorable), i went to bed. woke up at 2.10pm finding myself being late to drive to the airport. gesh

so, i went there and i felt like vomiting. the horrible jam, the people (crowded) and the distance itself. by that time, i told myself -i hope this is my last time doing all of this nonsense sacrifice for a man. i hope- i arrived there and we met. he bought me a dress from jakarta. it's something different, a bit tight, sweet and sexy. well, that was what he said. but i like it. i have to admit he has kinda good taste, compared to the men in general.

so this is how the outfit goes with me.



due to the horrifying jam, i chose to meet jahid afterward, my longtime childhood bestfriend/adik/ neighbour to take my touch N go he holds all this while. i was out of money so i asked for his treat. i end up treating him instead when he checked at the bank, his parents haven't bank-in his monthly allowance yet. haha thats funny! coincidentally my dad gave me extra allowance on the exact time. we went for dinner at Padi, Cyberjaya, near to his apartment.

we dont talked much. we took pictures and eat and eat. we even shared our foods. no worries. we dont need silly communication. instead, we act and do. too comfortable with each other perhaps, we can just hang out and stay silence doing our own job. but when we are in the mood, we won't stop talking, obviously :D i miss this man!

and we were in the mood for pictures! :P



at night, i had meeting with ein's family and committees for kak naz's nikah and reception.

so, being back to campus, i really dont have any mood. not a single one. and i basically 'dont care' is worrying. men? i wasnt attached to any man, not yesterday night. random talked, that was about it.

hoping for a good day (yet expecting the worst)

so, we'll meet today.
i'm not sure how it goes but i hope everythings okay.
i will prepare for the worst.

i bought a dress to wear there.
i'm not all excited, i just need to wear something new.
for a new fresh look.
something womanly, sweet yet fashionably simple.
will probably take a picture tomorrow, insyaallah

Ein is here, accompanying me in Puchong.
U know ur presence feels at ease already.
Thanks love :)

i am officially missing my family

i miss my family, rindu yang amat :(

• i miss my mom with her out loud laugh, chatty and funny!
• i miss my papa just for being my official boyfriend.
  
• i miss my grandma for her "kuat merajuk pantang tak jumpa dia or ignore dia sikit" and her cooks! rinduuu
• i miss my nephews Haris who love to bermanja, smart and chatty, like her grandma and aunt(me!) :P and i miss Eshan for being so cute, jealousy if he caught me kissing and hugging his brother and suka mengagah if we ignored him - attention seeker! LOL
• i miss kaklong for being the understanding cousin most of the time as well as being my kakak and my partner in crime.
• i miss abg and abgngah just because they are my annoying and caring brothers all in one.
• i miss my little brother, Amal for he inherited most of his attitude from my dad. kind, gentleman and lovable. tolerate with my insanity despite the fact that i can be an annoying sister at times.
• and i miss Kak Leha for she's the nicest, sporting and cool sister-in-law ever. she's calm and understanding.

I'M IN A MISS MODE WITH FULL OF LOVE

erasing a memory

Deleting someone would be crazy. I did. Deleted a friend, or i thought was a friend. Well, it started by my hands were playing around blocking the man up to see how he'd viewed me afterward. I was only curious at the first place to see what happened on the stories or pictures of me if he was blocked. Can he view, can he not? Some part of me says no. However to my surprised, once u blocked someone, means u deleted the person automatically. And I think I just deleted him. Oh My, I'm dead meat! It was just a try out session.

Despite the Opss I Did It Again, my heart actually agreed on the result while my conscious/mind says no. Why? So that it shows professionalism. Think of it, how can u be professional to someone who don't deserve you? CRAP is already enough to handle but another version of disrespect? How can i handle that?

So, until I dont think you deserve me, u wont be in my list.

facing my own insecurity - FINALLY

so, FINALLY, i met him! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!!

i felt relieved. it feels good. i know the fact that we might not contact each other afterward, BUT the feeling of satisfaction after all the eager/afraid/insecure/whatever crap HILANG! disappeared! and it feels so DAMN GOOD and SATISFYING!

so, its all up to the nature and situation. i am neither hoping, happy nor sad for the future undertaking. i've done my job, i treat him nicely and i acted properly. so okaylah. enough for this first meeting.

and thanks woneng for being my angel for today :) I LOVE YOU A LOT!

2 weeks of a HOUSE-NOT-SO-WIFE

I went for a grocery shopping today with my brother. He acted as my assistant while I surveyed and doing the picking. We bought necessary stuff and kicked the wasted things away. We really tried to cut our budget low just because we want to learn the hard way of appreciating money. Besides, there are so many things to buy for our apartment. Washing machine, TV, table, sofa etc. We spent hundreds already for the groceries itself. My brother and I choose to use our own pocket money for most of everything. Trying to show/prove to papa and mama how serious we are in making this house a proper one independently . Since I'm still a student, i can't donate much on the house. For that reason, I will cut my shopping budget for few month so it goes to the house. I'm on diet myself and gym-ing. Until i have my ideal body, I will use the current clothes. Or i hope? :P

I neglected the house for quite sometime without realizing how COMFY and RELAXING it is. Without any disturbance. This week, I chose to be here hoping i'll managed to tidy it up in a day. I was wrong indeed. It was in a total mess! My brother really knows how to KICK the HOUSE dirty! haish. sabar je lah...

Today, I cleaned the house. I started with the kitchen as it is the dirtiest place. I brushed rather than moping so all the stingy dust and dirt will vacate the area *buat serabut je. Finally, its cleaned! *proud

Haish, got many more to hygienic. I haven't settled the 3 rooms, store and living room. 2 bathrooms too! I choose to stay off-campus for 2 weeks and stays here in Puchong. By that time, it will be a sparkling dirt free uncontaminated house! wooosshh can't wait! :P

If I get to tired or need to relax, I will pull out my swimming suit and jump into the pool *splashh splasshh splasshh. ahh.. feels good! Swim session starts!

As for this week, I have my brother to accompany me. Not next week though. He'll be back to Terengganu and I'll be HOME ALONE. For the whole week :(

Random Mumble Gaga

So i was viewing the new IPAD. More to Ipod but it's bigger and a PAD size. I'm not sure to fall in love or what but sounds cool and catchy. Will survey the price once it hits Malaysia.

I noticed one thing. When i had problems, mentally disoriented or plain stress (overloaded work), I will have sleeping problems. Upside down timing. Very Abnormal. It happens, NOW

I think I should go for facial treatment once a month. i need my normal look. no make up, FRESH face.