To Nona, Irfan's imposter!

To Nona,

this is the imposter whose claiming he is your younger brother, Irfan. Pathehic, no? add i banyak kali pulak tu. lol

he is sooo BUSTED!

http://www.tagged.com/profile.html?uid=5427870096

bihun goreng perencah segera

My hands tickles, needed to cook plus i felt like eating something. i asked my brother and i think he too was hungry so i cooked fried bee hoon. i used perencah segera for the first time since it's fast and to try out on the taste. tawar. personally, i only had some because i dont really like it. the unpaid judge, my lil brother commented it's tawar but bolehla makan kat rumah sewa. lol well, i take that as a compliment because despite the fact that i'm using perencah segera, he ate twice and he finished it all. however, that will be the last time i'm using perencah segera. it taste like u bought fried bee hoon in a -common not delicious restaurant-. i will stick to the old-fashioned way using raw ingredients. a real home-cook meal :)

busy bee day!

headache *less sleeping. problem.

i need to update. before i forget or totally lazy to keep posted.

yesterday, was a "i'm not sure it was a busy day or not but i'm physically tired". Without any sleep (was on the phone with my bestfriend, Wawa who's in London - a great and bonding conversation), as early at 8am, Ein and I drove off from my place in Puchong to Ein's hse in Wangsa Maju which takes approximately 45min. And after having Nasi Goreng for breakfast at Ein's house and talked to an orphanage kid (long story. in short, Ein's mom entered the orphanage program. or something similar to that. the boy is adorable), i went to bed. woke up at 2.10pm finding myself being late to drive to the airport. gesh

so, i went there and i felt like vomiting. the horrible jam, the people (crowded) and the distance itself. by that time, i told myself -i hope this is my last time doing all of this nonsense sacrifice for a man. i hope- i arrived there and we met. he bought me a dress from jakarta. it's something different, a bit tight, sweet and sexy. well, that was what he said. but i like it. i have to admit he has kinda good taste, compared to the men in general.

so this is how the outfit goes with me.



due to the horrifying jam, i chose to meet jahid afterward, my longtime childhood bestfriend/adik/ neighbour to take my touch N go he holds all this while. i was out of money so i asked for his treat. i end up treating him instead when he checked at the bank, his parents haven't bank-in his monthly allowance yet. haha thats funny! coincidentally my dad gave me extra allowance on the exact time. we went for dinner at Padi, Cyberjaya, near to his apartment.

we dont talked much. we took pictures and eat and eat. we even shared our foods. no worries. we dont need silly communication. instead, we act and do. too comfortable with each other perhaps, we can just hang out and stay silence doing our own job. but when we are in the mood, we won't stop talking, obviously :D i miss this man!

and we were in the mood for pictures! :P



at night, i had meeting with ein's family and committees for kak naz's nikah and reception.

so, being back to campus, i really dont have any mood. not a single one. and i basically 'dont care' is worrying. men? i wasnt attached to any man, not yesterday night. random talked, that was about it.

hoping for a good day (yet expecting the worst)

so, we'll meet today.
i'm not sure how it goes but i hope everythings okay.
i will prepare for the worst.

i bought a dress to wear there.
i'm not all excited, i just need to wear something new.
for a new fresh look.
something womanly, sweet yet fashionably simple.
will probably take a picture tomorrow, insyaallah

Ein is here, accompanying me in Puchong.
U know ur presence feels at ease already.
Thanks love :)

i am officially missing my family

i miss my family, rindu yang amat :(

• i miss my mom with her out loud laugh, chatty and funny!
• i miss my papa just for being my official boyfriend.
  
• i miss my grandma for her "kuat merajuk pantang tak jumpa dia or ignore dia sikit" and her cooks! rinduuu
• i miss my nephews Haris who love to bermanja, smart and chatty, like her grandma and aunt(me!) :P and i miss Eshan for being so cute, jealousy if he caught me kissing and hugging his brother and suka mengagah if we ignored him - attention seeker! LOL
• i miss kaklong for being the understanding cousin most of the time as well as being my kakak and my partner in crime.
• i miss abg and abgngah just because they are my annoying and caring brothers all in one.
• i miss my little brother, Amal for he inherited most of his attitude from my dad. kind, gentleman and lovable. tolerate with my insanity despite the fact that i can be an annoying sister at times.
• and i miss Kak Leha for she's the nicest, sporting and cool sister-in-law ever. she's calm and understanding.

I'M IN A MISS MODE WITH FULL OF LOVE

erasing a memory

Deleting someone would be crazy. I did. Deleted a friend, or i thought was a friend. Well, it started by my hands were playing around blocking the man up to see how he'd viewed me afterward. I was only curious at the first place to see what happened on the stories or pictures of me if he was blocked. Can he view, can he not? Some part of me says no. However to my surprised, once u blocked someone, means u deleted the person automatically. And I think I just deleted him. Oh My, I'm dead meat! It was just a try out session.

Despite the Opss I Did It Again, my heart actually agreed on the result while my conscious/mind says no. Why? So that it shows professionalism. Think of it, how can u be professional to someone who don't deserve you? CRAP is already enough to handle but another version of disrespect? How can i handle that?

So, until I dont think you deserve me, u wont be in my list.

facing my own insecurity - FINALLY

so, FINALLY, i met him! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!!

i felt relieved. it feels good. i know the fact that we might not contact each other afterward, BUT the feeling of satisfaction after all the eager/afraid/insecure/whatever crap HILANG! disappeared! and it feels so DAMN GOOD and SATISFYING!

so, its all up to the nature and situation. i am neither hoping, happy nor sad for the future undertaking. i've done my job, i treat him nicely and i acted properly. so okaylah. enough for this first meeting.

and thanks woneng for being my angel for today :) I LOVE YOU A LOT!