finding her OWNself

i'm trying to cope up with the fact that i can neglect them and be back as i used to.

i miss my old me. those girl with passion and freedom energy.

but i love what i am now:

-the woman full with great family, friends and supports
-full of confidence
-despite her heartless method, she is still smiling and vivacious of her life.
-she is full at heart. filling it with not being a slave for love but an independent lover :)
-ready to accepting.

she is changing bit by bit.
i know the process will take more than a while.
but i am openly accepting the challenge.
i start slow but it worth the shot.
i have to get out from my secured shell.
i just need to BE OUT.

i am a MOMMY of my BABIES HAMSTER now.
and i am happy having them.
i did change something about myself,
being the caretaker.

what about you?