shopaholic alert!

i will not be discussing on my Bday yet.

but rather talking on the 6th clothes i bought JUST today! i shopped a lot lately. very cheap but a lot. should i cut it? NO? yes? again, i gain my shopaholic senses after so long... danger alert!

p/s: i surveyed BENEFIT 2way-kit powder for RM145 (new arrival), and some good looking earrings today at Miss Selfridge and Forever 21. will absolutely get it this Saturday!

when angelic eyes jatuh cinta

any guy who cooks, sounds OKAYY to me!

googling COOLER and BETTER CAREER

more piggy comes and goes. and comes. bosan

no more piggies. end.
i'm not mad or even hurted. i'm just MALAS.

bunch of man who i malas nak entertain.
i think i better focus on something cooler and benefiting me.

1. gym?
2. studying?
3. family?
4. comfy friends?

5. flirting?
a close-distance flirt. we communicate and it stop there. day by day basis. jumpa, flirt and stop.
it goes on with different person each time. yes, it may not be fun to any of you, but to me it will be. why?

• no attachment.
  
• i will feel like a princess each time. with every of different person i meet

(simply becos men are known to act decent, friendly or good mula-mula je. to certain extend, u can see the jerk part he can't hide. true colour revealed. i dont want to know that part and entertain their insanity point. call me a diva or anything. entertaining them as in putting myself in a shaken glass. i dont need a shaken glass)

• fun!
• i need cute guys. if they are playboy, i couldnt care less. at least, i go out with eyes nicely cleared :P non-good looking guys (we considered them though they arent that cute, handsome etc) , perangai mcm SIAL jugak. so, which risk i should put into? cute guys who have bad reputation or ugly guys who can be the master of jerks? my answer is obvious :)
• i love to be mysterious. the lesser they know me, the better.
  
• no-feeling should be express. heart to heart thing dah getting nonsense to me.
• and again, PRINCESS treatment! i mention it twice showing how that feels so DAMN GOOD. the feeling is unexplainable. best word i could think, CLOUD 9. though it will only be seconds

flirting would be the last requirement. but it can be in the list, considering the occasion, mood and time. so far as for now, i feel normal. nothing to flirt. i would prefer the top 4 :)

the TRUE me

i'm going back to KL today. hoorrraayyy! :) yes, i'm happy. splendidly happy.

i read one random blog. he said something about being who u are even when u r blogging. many didnt. they become something they are not. to attracts other bloggers or just because it is their alter ego which can't be apply in real life.

today, i'm on a reality check. i will be myself as i'm outside.

i have always applied a comfort zone blogging. i extract the genes and make it one shot, one line, not direct and being the only person who understands. sometimes, a blogger who is a thinker and perhaps my friends knows what i meant.

not today, i wont. everybody can know (the one that have my blog, kawan2 follower i je. thats a relieved *smiling)

it's morning. i'm basically in a better shape. than yesterday and the rest of 2 weeks. i hope it stays until i'm back to school *better shape. crossfingers

i have many plans. very.

short term plan would be cleaning up my hamster's cage. they are so smelly now! kesian.. poor the pairs. so, probably this saturday.. i would go buy them a proper meal and their sandbath or a shampoo for hamster. they are so cute to get that smelly! sayang mereka. oh, their name is Jerry and Aaoki, if i havent mentioned them before.
p/s: i'm going there with the daddy's hamster :P

half long term. as in for few months.

1) buying my own Blackberry. insyaallah with my own money. will try to pujuk papa later. hopefully he can add some few hundreds in there.

2) going to Penang!! as odd as it can be, i never ever hit my lazy feet to Penang. whats nice in there by the way? the plan consist of four people - the marriage couples, ijad and ili, fify and I. we'll celebrate Christmas there :) i thought of chilling at the new Hard Rock Cafe there. look interesting. nak cuba tgklah. ijad may not be used to it. but since he got his wife in his arm, i think he'll agree *wink

2) concert NE-YO perhaps? still considering since my bestfriend brother's wedding is on the 9th january. the ne-yo thing will be on 7th. aisha did asked me to go. will see howlah

3) farhanah brother's wedding of course. his name is Lee. so yea, i promised to be the bridesmaid. i am not quite sure actually now since i gain more pounds rather than losingg! :( i promised farhanah to lose weight. so, i have to start presumely this week. as soon as i step my feet to KL. fitness first bebeh! yes! hehe

4) losing more pounds in 6 month. promised being made to certain people. need to kick my butts to the gym

long term

-just getting better and better in studying. keep ambitious and not to lose it. insyaallah

MARRY ME. because i'd want to date you

-MARRY ME. because i'd want to date you-

yes. marry me. it is an open invitation. i know i've hurt many in the process of dating via no string attach. but it really don't work out on me. so yea, MARRY ME. because dating come afterward :)

Reality Check

suddenly, meeting my bestfriend this Tuesday shaken me. i can't figure out why

it was 2 years back when we last met. exactly the 12 o'clock of my sweet 20th. we always stay reconnected regardless the tense or happy times. as any other besfriend, we do fight. and when it happened, we back off for a while. giving US space

-that explains us-

this past few days was my peak moments. yesterday, dale called. despite the fact that where are so much away from each other lately. busy and naturally not attached, he successfully makes me sober. especially when i am indeed require a shoulder to lean on. he was always there during the insanity point. i only realize that when we hang up. it feels good. he such a very good BFF. i am overwhelmed

i will be bullshitting myself believing that i'm 24/7 happy. it's very hard to handle certain things alone sometime. i smile when my mind said otherwise. believing that i'm on my own and need someone is pretty scary. the alone part unsuccessfully affect me but when my mindset said -u need someone- it gives me goosebumps. i tend to do irrational act. however, i am certain on one very thing. i am not getting happier but putting myself into risk and more risk. i suddenly becomes too active yet i have a heart of an empty soul. as many knows, i am an impulsive person. i enjoyed being one but having to go that extreme?

lately, i am back to reality - living independently. i reckon this is the right action because independent gives me back my life. where i wont care much on entertaining others or putting my space over some crap people. i will just hold my time strictly to whoever i care the most and do whatever i feel good :) this is how i had presented AINAA YASMIN and i am damn well used to that.

finding her OWNself

i'm trying to cope up with the fact that i can neglect them and be back as i used to.

i miss my old me. those girl with passion and freedom energy.

but i love what i am now:

-the woman full with great family, friends and supports
-full of confidence
-despite her heartless method, she is still smiling and vivacious of her life.
-she is full at heart. filling it with not being a slave for love but an independent lover :)
-ready to accepting.

she is changing bit by bit.
i know the process will take more than a while.
but i am openly accepting the challenge.
i start slow but it worth the shot.
i have to get out from my secured shell.
i just need to BE OUT.

i am a MOMMY of my BABIES HAMSTER now.
and i am happy having them.
i did change something about myself,
being the caretaker.

what about you?